I've had this happen before, being called to serve, to help another...sometimes it seems even to my own detriment.  I myself don't mind too much.  This is all I've ever really known, when someone is in need, if I can in any way help them I do.  But for this fact I sometimes push away from those I'm close to, family, lovers, even other friends.  Seeking, needing, being called upon to help another.  It's tough to explain to someone who just is on the other side - out looking in.  I share this with anyone in an effort to deal with it...to put it out there, to help others who feel this way, and to help myself.  Maybe some comment will cause me some inspiration, perhaps there is some statement from which I can glean something...in either, or any, case I am grateful and I say "Thank you."

I know I have posted once before about a certain level of energy flowing through me...and I will say it seems to be happening more and more often. As though I am opening up to something. I begin to feel like I am finding my calling...I can feel the gentle tug to come "just a little farther" and if I could but describe this feeling to you all it would be through a swirl of three dimensional color...the inside of a star, the rising of the sun, the luminescence of the brilliant full moon...I feel the layers peel back, allowing my soul to be bared and fully charge with the energies around me...o what simplistic ecstasy this is...knowing...

I just wanted to share this with everyone and how I feel as a result of this!

http://www.celticreikifederation.org/what.htm

I have just now read through this and feel inspired...I feel the calling, the energies, I think of the Birch who populate the front yard and hill area in front of where I live...I remember "my" favorite Oak tree in a park I used to visit all of the time...the Pines from when I was living at home.

I can feel the energy, flowing up from my Root Chakra to my Crown Chakra, but most particularly around my Heart Chakra, I feel it swirling and building...the loving energies of the Tree folk.  *I breathe deeply and smile...*

A moment of zen, a moment of turmoil...

It's another night for me that as I lay down and try to relax to sleep I have the innards of my mind spinning around throughout my head.  It's a condition that my mother may well have passed on to me (either by habit, karma, or otherwise...).  But it's all too annoying, and yet possibly just as well (I haven't done the dishes or my yoga this evening) *sigh* So I thought that I might say to you all the things that are flowing through my head at this point and offer insight to the fellow insomniacs and receive guidance from any who has any thoughts...

le sigh

I wouldn't necessarily say "strange", although they might be considered odd or off color to some other more traditionally focused persons.  Namely, any of these views are Directly related to my personal philosophies of life and I have had people "question" me about them...because they didn't see the logic, when really all they needed to do was understand the practicality of the system, rather than trying to justify it by way of some higher power.  I don't believe in karma, although I do believe in Newton's Laws of Motion...I don't believe in karma in the sense that Westerners use it, but I have no issues with the traditional Sanskrit origin of it (it means action).  I don't foster a believe in good and bad (in black and white terms)...I prefer to see all of the shades of gray/grey and the patterns and technicolor beyond.  I recognize the duplicity of everything...that whatever is, is also not.  I revere the concept of Chaos greatly, because to me it is the end all with anything...as was so poignantly put by Robert Burns, later adapted by Jon Steinbeck for a novel of his (Of Mice and Men), "the best laid plans of mice and men often go awry..."  And I fully support Murphy's Law...I mean who wouldn't !?  And I embrace Chaos in a rather brotherly fashion...which is beyond many people...I also see the "good" in that which is destructive, to include so called "negative" aspects of deital representations (plain English - god/dess figures.  I don't believe that anything is any more or less likely than anything else and that all things are possible, particularly if the right amount of force is put behind it...

Merry Sharing,
MTS